It Has Been a Year Since I Left

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It has been a year since I left

A year since I left the relationship.

What did I accomplish this year?
Did I do God’s will?
Was this just all part of his plan?

His beautiful awesome plan!

When I said I was leaving the relationship, I was overwhelmed with love and gratitude to the people that reached out to me and opened their homes to me. People that I have known for years and others that I didn’t even know but had heard about me through mutual friends.

These people all believed in me. They were excited for me and the new life I was about to embark on. They were excited to see God’s hand in my life and the words that seemed to ring from everyone were:

PJ you are a good person. You know God and He will lead the way. You are strong. There are big things in store for you. You will find your way. You made the right decision. We love you. We want the best for you. We are here for you. Let people help you.

Let people help me? NO!! I am the one that always helps others! I am the one to bring the meals, to annoymously help others, to tithe, to share my gift of hospitality. To treat others to lunch or buy their coffee. I am the giver and I like that role! I like giving!

I am a giver! A giver!

Receive? Take? I don’t like this role at all! BUT….is this part of the lesson that God has taught me this year? The gift of receiving. The gift of being humble.

Is this just all part of God’s plan?

Is this all part of God’s plan. God’s beautiful wonderful plan?

He also gave me many more gifts this year. The gift of trust and faith. It is only with my trust and faith that I knew I could make it through the transitional year. Lots of trust and faith. Some days I would wake up and just pray, “God, help me just focus on the joy you have planned for me today knowing that I don’t know what tomorrow will bring. Knowing that I am a complete Mary Poppins perfectionist control freak! Knowing I am not in control but you, my Dear Lord, hold my life in your hands.

It was with those words and a few tears that got me through many days.

It was always amazing how God would work in my life those days. Those days when I woke up completely in despair turning to God for His love and with my trust and faith that God has a beautiful wonderful plan for me. For ME His child.

God has a plan!

When the sun went down on those days, I would realize that God held me tight all day. He stayed close to me and those days always were glorious.

I learned to turn more to God. That is a gift from Jesus! One of the many gifts I received this past year.

God has blessed me with the greatest joys

So as I reflect back over the last year, I realize that I may still not have the answers to some of the important questions I have about my life journey today. I still don’t know what I will really do to fill my savings account. I still don’t know where I am going to be living. I still haven’t meant my new husband. What I do know, God has truly blessed me with one of the greatest joys a woman could ever want…

And that joy is being closer to God. Closer to my Father. Closer to living the life that he has chosen for me to live. Oh, my God has blessed me.

It is exciting times! God is in total control of my life. He wants wonderful things for his children and how lucky I am to be one of His cherished children. The blessings are just beginning… God is remarkable! I can’t wait to share with you all the things that God has and is blessing me with.

With Faith…
With Trust…
With Hope…
With Belief…
With….
Just knowing….

With just knowing that God is my God…Our God…Yours and my God…

Just knowing this….

I know in my heart…

I know that my life is about to unfold beautiful wonderul blessings…

All you have to do is have trust, faith and believe in God. I want to say that it is easy. But we all know that it isn’t easy. It isn’t easy to turn your life over. It isn’t easy to trust. It is sometimes hard to have faith through the trials and tribulations of life. It isn’t easy to pray, “God, today I give you control to show me your joy in today. Today I trust you that you know the best way for me. I know that you have a wonderful glorious plan for me. I know that through my trials and tribulations that you teach lessons. Dear Lord, today, I will walk where you lead me.”

That is not an easy prayer to say. It is hard to really believe. It is hard to not just take control and make decisions that may not be His will for us. But I know that this year has been my test to myself on how much faith I have in my Lord.

I am proud to say I made it through this year a much stronger woman. I made it through this year because I did have faith and I turned to God (almost) every day.

Let us see what tomorrow will bring…

Question to you…
If you have something that you are struggling with right now, do you have enough faith and trust to turn it over to God. Can you just say a prayer then take a deep breath and release the problem to God to handle? I encourage you to start small… Start with one problem…then eventually as you grow in your faith … you will be able to turn your life over to God and watch the blessings unfold.

As James Stewart would say, “It is a Wonderful Life!”

On a Journey

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Your future is in front of you.

Don’t Know Where I am Heading

I am on a journey.

With me, I have packed…

Faith

Hope

Love

Grace

Humility

I hope to find on the way…

Friendship

Love

A new purpose

And when I find my new home to unpack my bags…

I will know that where I am, who I am with, and what I am doing…

Is totally because God led me there.

Join me on my journey….


Book by Stormie | #194

365 Day Gratitude Bucket 2011

Gratitude Bucket 2011

I am grateful for Stormie Omartian’s book The Power of a Praying Woman.
I am in the middle of reading this book.
All I will say at this time:

  • It is a great book.
  • I am learning a lot.
  • It is helping me find answers.
  • I need to read more every day–God’s word.
  • I will move on to the next step in God’s journey for me.
  • I have faith. I have faith. I believe. I have faith.
  • I must forgive to move on. I forgive.
  • I must trust. I trust.
  • Something wonderful is waiting for each and everyone of us that believes, has faith and trust.

I am grateful to have Stormie’s words to learn from. Thank you, Stormie, for writing such a great book!

 

365 Day Gratitude Bucket: Day # 193 | Grateful for Stormie Omartian’s book

Eat Pray Love Luncheon in the Park with Girlfriends

Table set for Eat Pray Love Lunch at the park

I was just reminiscing about this luncheon I had for my girlfriends…

I absolutely loved Elizabeth Gilbert’s book “Eat, Pray, Love”. It was an inspiration to me full of eating, praying and love! Yeh, duh! My girlfriends had all read the book and most felt the same connection that I did to Elizabeth’s experience. I decided that I wanted to celebrate the book and the movie coming out with my girlfriends. So…I planned a Luncheon and Movie date with some of my closest friends.

Everything I did for the luncheon was inspired from my reading. I kept in mind the countries she had visited: Italy, India and Indonesia along with her adventures and the food she ate.

I wanted this to be a memorable experience for my girlfriends. It was important to have the food, decorations and the atmosphere depicting the book.

 

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Food was a big part of Liz’s Italy adventure including some wonderful fresh fruits. Here I served melon wrapped in prosciutto with grapes as the first course.

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In the book there was a very special bonding of the relationship between Elizabeth and her friend Ketut’s wife. When Ketut’s wife offered Elizabeth a cup of coffee the first time, she served it in a Mason jar. The second time she brought her coffee, she brought it in a Mason jar on a china saucer. Hence, I used a Mason jar to serve the ice tea on a saucer. The other interesing thing that Ketut’s wife did: she brought the sugar in a little bowl. Hence, I used these little crystal bowls for each one of my guest to serve the sugar in.

I loved this exchange in the book between Ketut’s wife and Elizabeth. It was hard for Ketut’s wife to accept Elizabeth at first. It took her some time before she trusted and allowed her into her heart and have a relationship with her. I can completely see where Ketut’s wife is coming from. Here is this lady from America coming into their life, asking lots of questions of Ketut, and spending a lot of time with him. I, too, would have my guard up!

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Sticking with the Italian food, I served an artichoke and tomato salad with olive oil!

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There is a wonderful scene in the book when Liz visits Rome. She is enjoying a pizza and practically has an orgasm while she is indulging in every single bite of this amazing pizza. (Reminds me of the movie “When Harry Meant Sally” remember Meg Ryan sitting in the coffee shop? hahah)

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Liz did a lot of praying and meditating during her journey so I thought the Buddha statue from Cost Plus was a perfect centerpiece.

The stargazer lily is my favorite flower. The fragrance is exquisite and represented the large fragrant flowers from the gardens of Bali.

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I wanted my friends to know how grateful I am for their friendship so I wrote a thank you note to each individual guest which also worked as a placecard.

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Heart sugar cookies reminded us of the love that Liz received at the end of the book.

The elephant sugar cookie represented the scene from the trailor of the movie where Julia Roberts has the encounter with the elephant in Bali.

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I got the India tablecloth from Cost Plus, too. It did such a good job at pulling all the decorations together and depicting India.

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No party is complete without party favors! I included elephant and heart sugar cookies, tea, and homemade berry jelly.

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A toast to good friends, love, peace, Italy (most of us are Italians hee hee), and spiritual growth.

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College Boy made these prayer beads for each of my guest. A heart replaced the 109th bead of the prayer necklace. The necklaces graced the table representing Liz’s spiritual journey. Each of my guest took a prayer necklace home to remind them of this beautiful day together.

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College Boy was so sweet to put these together for me on such short notice! Isn’t he cute with his prayer beads on?!

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“…it is wiser to surrender before the miraculous scope of human generosity and to just keep saying thank you, forever and sincerely, for as long as we have voices.” –Elizabeth Gilbert

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Tirimasu for dessert was the perfect ending to this Eat, Pray, Love themed luncheon in the park
My girlfriends and I left that park and headed to the movie theater where we cried, laughed, and cried some more. We each could relate to Elizabeth Gilbert’s journey. Each in our own way we could feel the love, the hurt, and the spiritual growth. We wanted to be Elizabeth Gilbert.

After two hours of being on the journey with Elizabeth, we wanted to continue our journey when the movie was over.

Which one of us friends would most likely leave everything and take that big leap of faith to visit three different countries? Could we take that leap of faith?

I would jump at it! Got a book deal you want to give me? I’ll pack my bags while you draw up the contract and wire me my first check. ok?

It will be a great journey!

 
pam

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