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Pam McCoy

I am back..NOT that anyone missed me

Pam McCoy
I am back to Random Pocket Notes.

Not that you care.

Not that you missed me.

This is about me.

About having a place to escape.

Escape with my thoughts.

Exposing a little..yes, a little, creative writing.

Is it creative?

Who is judging?

Mr. Herbold, my 10th grade English teacher?

My Mom or Dad?

My kids?

My friends?

My future employers?

My future husband?


Does it matter?

God is the only one that ultimately matters.

He is first.

He is my leader.

And, you know, even HE won’t judge me.

He will accept me for who I am.

He will accept me for what I say and what I think.

He will always be here…caring.

So I am back to Random Pocket Notes.


Opening up…







Will I share more then I should?


The thing is, I need to share…for me!

I need to share for you.

I need to share for you whom may be experiencing some of the same joys and sorrow that I am experiencing.

I need to share for you whom may be scared to take action but from my experience and words it will help give you the power and courage to leave, to move on, to love, to laugh, to cry…to share.

Let’s have a relationship here…

Yes, here on Random Pocket Notes.

Comment here.

Share here.

Or if it is all you can do is listen, then by all means LISTEN!

Love and hugs.


PJ Mom

decorated luminaria bags

Luminaria Ceremony: American Cancer Society’s Relay for Life

There were a lot of children participating in the West Sacramento American Cancer Society’s Relay for Life event. Some who were inflicted with the awful disease but many who had family members that were battling the disease or had lost their life to it. These kids especially touched me as they spoke about their loved ones.

10 year old decorates luminaria bags

One young ten year old especially touched my heart as I was able to work with her at the Luminaria table. She volunteered a few hours decorating bags for loved ones who were not able to decorate their own bags. She had told me about many family members that had cancer. Her aunt got cancer awhile she was pregnant and lost her baby. Her papa whom she was the closest to of all the grandchildren, lost his life to cancer. Her story was of determination to fight the cancer. She knew by giving her time to this event that we would be that much closer to fighting this deadly disease that has impacted her young life.

5 year old carries luminaria bags for Relay for Life

Another little boy, only five years old, he was a doll! He helped us load all the luminaria bags onto the trailer for distribution around the field. He placed each bag so carefully as if he was remembering each person that the bag represented. It was quite amazing to watch. He looked at each bag and was sure to place the artwork in one direction. I later caught up with him awhile he was selling light sticks for the evening show to thank him for his hard work and diligence. He understood why he was at the event. At his young age of five, he had been impacted by the disease. He was there to help fight it.

Kids help at the American Cancer Society Relay for life.

Kids help at the American Cancer Society Relay for life.

Kids help at the American Cancer Society Relay for life.

Many young adults were there lending a helping hand. They were there because they are givers and wanted to help. Yes, Mom and Dads, your young adults have kind hearts. Yes, America, there are good people out there…our kids are not what the news always represents. There is so much more then what we hear on the news. These young adults helped all Friday evening to set up, returned Saturday morning at 6am to help and stayed until 10pm. (I am sure they showed up Sunday to help break everything down, too!) They stayed working…and giving from their heart. They didn’t have to be there. Many of their parents were not there. These young adults were there because they had heard about the event from a friend and decided to be part of the Relay for Life.

Kids help decorate luminaria bags at the American Cancer Society Relay for life.

Another Mom and her young daughter worked with me all day at the luminaria table. They were there because they knew the event volunteer coordinator and she had mentioned the event. They didn’t have any plans that day so they thought they would come out for a few hours to help. They got so wrapped up in the event that they volunteered for 13 hours! From a few hours to 13 hours! Why did they stay that long? They got trapped (in a good way) to the energy of the day. They were surrounded by love and enthusiasm for life and hope…hope that there would be a cure for cancer one day.

There was so much positive energy during the day as the music played in the background and relay groups continued to walk around the track. Some walked in solitude awhile others walked in big groups.

decorated luminaria bags

cancer family member decorates luminaria bag

Did I do a bag for my Dad?  I have to confess I did not. I thought about it. I wanted to do a bag but yet I didn’t. I hadn’t volunteered there because of my Dad. I had volunteered there because of all the other families. Besides I didn’t want to deal with my emotions that day. I was there to serve, to listen, to show compassion. I watched as many people decorated their bags. Some smiled because their bags were in honor of someone who was cancer free for several years. But there was those who you could tell it was hard to sit and write the name of the loved one they had lost…the one they were writing in memory of…. Lots of emotions went into those bags.

This day wasn’t about me.
It wasn’t about my Dad and the cancer he suffers with.

This day was giving, listening and being present for others.

I will come back to this event some day not as a volunteer but as a participant. Some day when I want to honor my Dad for all the cancer battles he has fought…but for this day only….I am thinking about all the other people that are here and the burdens on their heart and in their mind because of this nasty ugly deadly disease.

Yes, during the luminaria ceremony, I shed a tear or two for my Dad but I quickly shut those tears off and focused on all the loved ones that were on that football field…at that moment.

I hope each and everyone of you keep moving forward to helping fight this battle. It would be awesome to say that we have conquered this ugly disease. That the event is now….a Relay of Life NOT a Relay of life to fight cancer.

Thank you to all the volunteers and relay teams for allowing me to experience your stories, your emotions and your love. I will carry your stories in my heart…..

Holding on to HOPE…..


On My Way to Calistoga | #161

I am on my way to Calistoga today for the weekend. That in itself is a great reason to be grateful but the reason for the trip is the ultimate reason to be grateful. You see one of my best girlfriend’s (Mrs. Beach Lover) daughter is getting married to the sweetest man. They are the sweetest couple! I am looking forward to being a part of them sharing their love together as they become Mr. and Mrs. Sweetheart!

365 Day Project: Gratitude Bucket | Day #161


Swinging on the Beach at Pismo


This is one of my favorite places to stop along the California Coast–Pismo Beach!


A few years ago, on New Year’s Eve I went on a drive by myself. I was headed to Long Beach from Northern California on Interstate 5. I don’t know what possessed me but when I got to Highway 58 I decided to head West. I wasn’t sure where I would end up but I hoped it would be close to the ocean. (I didn’t have a map and as all my family members will tell you I am directionally challenged!

I ended up at Highway 101 and proceeded to go south.

I drove for awhile until I saw the exit for Pismo Beach where I decided to pull off the Highway to explore, get gas, a drink and a peak at the ocean.


I stopped at Old West for a coffee. Oh, my, they had cinnamon rolls that smelled so good, too.

I then walked around the corner and down a block to find this swingset on the beach.

I was in heaven!

I love to swing!

Even as an adult, I will go to the park to swing. It is so relaxing to me.

I was in heaven! Two of my favorite things were placed here in Pismo together–the ocean and a swingset!

I probably spent at least an hour there before I got back on the road to head to Long Beach.


Recently I went on a road trip to Southern California and purposely planned to stop in Pismo Beach to have a coffee at the Old West and to swing on the beach.


It was a lovely time….swinging on the beach. I wish it wasn’t so far from me.

Do you have one of those special places where you enjoy to go? A place where you feel closer to God? A place that makes you feel like you are in heaven?

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