Category Archives: Dad, My Dad!

My Dad! I call him Mr. Belvedere. He wants his story told. A story of love, lost, faith and hope. I hope you will read, comment, cry, laugh and understand the man I call Dad.


Dad’s PSA Test | #193


Today is a great day to be grateful!

Dad had cancer in his prostate at the beginning of the year and then had surgery to remove the cancer.

Then he took another PSA test and his test came out a 5. Not good! That meant the cancer was back.

So the doctors put him on hormone therapy which is suppose to kill the cancer.

Guess what?!

We just got the results back from his latest PSA test and it is a 1. A one! Yippee! His PSA test came out as a one!

That is good news. That means the hormone treatment is doing its job.

Dad, sorry you have to deal with hot flashes! Welcome to my world! But Dad, isn’t it worth it to get rid of that ugly cancer?!

365 Day Project: Gratitude Bucket
Day #193 I am grateful for Dad’s cancer to go away!

Circa 2010 picnic-dad plays baseball

Cedars-Sinai Heart Transplant Unit Picnic and Baseball | #177

Today was the Cedars-Sinai Medical Center Heart Transplants annual picnic and baseball game for patients that were fortunate enough to receive a new heart.

My Dad was fortunate to receive a new heart several years ago.

Dad wasn’t sure that he would make it to the event this year because he wasn’t feeling well. Hence, I didn’t go down to be with him this year. He did go today. He didn’t play baseball though; he just wasn’t up to it.

It isn’t his heart that is causing him to not feel well…it is other things that I will write about one day.

Today I am grateful that my Dad was able to attend the Cedars-Sinai Medical Center Heart Transplants Annual Picnic and Baseball game. The doctors and staff are definitely dedicated to the patients and have a love for their career.

In honor of my Dad, I thought I would share a few of my favorite photos from last years event that I was able to attend. Last year, Dad was feeling really good and played some baseball. It was the doctors and staff against the patients. Of course, some how the patients always win.

Pictures are Circa 2010.

Here’s to you, Dad! Love you!

I am grateful for all the dedication, love and hard work that Cedars-Sinai provides their patients and family.
I am grateful because of this dedication, that my Dad is still living here on this earth!

It’s Father’s Day and I Still Have My Dad! | #170

It is Father’s Day!


I still have my Dad!

Those two things make me very grateful!

dad at heart transplant doctor's office

Even though my Dad has to go to the doctors a lot, I am still lucky because he is still alive!

card from my dad

My Dad is very thoughtful and is often sending me cards.

He writes Pamelia
My name is Pamela
All these years and he never knew that he spelled my name wrong.
I never told him.
I am Pamelia to my Dad and that is ok by me!

Hang in there, Dad! We have more Father’s Days to celebrate!

Love you,

365 Day Project: Gratitude Bucket | Day # 170

Mom and Dad

I Am NOT Letting Go Yet, Daddy!

Mom and Dad
Dad couldn't do it without Mom...she is a great advocate for him.

It has been six months since I wrote the last story about my Dad.

That wasn’t my intention to let six months go without talking about him.

My Dad wants his story told and I want to tell it.

What has happened the last six months is: I have been very angry!

I have been angry because I don’t like seeing my Dad go through medical problems. It is not fair. He has had his share! Can’t he just enjoy life for a while?

I was angry because I was afraid my Dad was giving up because of the humiliation of the prostate cancer. I had never seen my Dad so down since his twenty year old son was killed.

You see, since that last post, he has undergone prostate surgery. I know a lot of men go through prostate surgery. I know that. I do! He has also had an incident in the hospital when all his vitals went crazy just a few months ago that I will talk about in another post.

You see this surgery was really hard on my Dad…emotionally. He has had a very hard time accepting the fact that he wouldn’t have control of his bodily fluids and may never have that control again. That has been hard on him. (And quite frankly it has been hard on me because my Dad has always been there for me…emotionally.)

Dad is macho in his 5’5″ body! A good macho…not the arrogant kind of macho. I will tell you some stories later about his macho or heroic acts that he has performed with his 5’5″ body.

Dad was not dealing with the fact that he may not ever have control over his bodily fluids.

BUT Dad, he is a trooper. He has made it through the surgery and the humiliation for the few months after as he kept Depends in business. He was a trooper.

Dad is a trooper. (I am not going to share any more about the surgery right now. I don’t think Dad is ready to share that whole story yet but I hope he will soon so that other men that may be going through the same surgery will know what it is like to deal with the physical and emotional obstacles they will go through.)

A few months after Dad’s prostate surgery, he had a PSA test done. The score came out high…again. #@%*#

I was angry.

The doctors said let’s just wait a little to see if the PSA number goes down….it might have been too soon after his prostate cancer surgery the doctors told us.

So we waited another month and had the test done again.

It came out high…again! @$%^&*

We don’t know where the cancer is. It could just be a little molecule floating around Dad’s body and hasn’t planted itself anywhere yet.

So now…

Now he is on hormone therapy. Hormone therapy is supposed to kill the cancer.

I will continue to pray. I will continue to work on my anger.

Dad says, “Don’t worry Pam, I still have work to do on this earth. My time hasn’t come.”

I am going to hold on to those words because….darn it! I AM NOT READY TO GIVE MY DAD AWAY!

I am not going to say these words to you yet, Dad!

I am not ready. I know I am a middle aged empty nest Mom but I still need you!

I am not ready to let go.

Love you, Dad!

Grandpa and college Boy

Grateful for College Boy and Grandpa’s Relationship | #153

Grandpa and college Boy

365 Day Project: Filling my Gratitude Bucket | Day #153 | Random Pocket Notes


Today I am very grateful for the wonderful relationship that Grandpa and College Boy have together! It is very special and I know they both will always treasure their time together.


Filling my gratitude bucket today!

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