The last two years I have spent learning.
Not listening. Learning.
I was taking an opportunity put in front of me to educate myself for a new career path.
When I was laid off from my job (what a humbling experience that is), I decided it would be a great time to explore other career opportunities.
I took a medical terminology class for starters. I did well in the class–received an A. I also received some knowledge about what I didn’t want to do with my life. I explored being an Occupational Therapist and an Ultra Sound Technician but I discovered that my stomach wouldn’t be able to take those jobs. I interviewed workers in these fields. The Occupational Therapist told me some patients are not able to control their bodily functions. The Ultra Sound Technician informed me it isn’t just about the pregnant moms, you can be put in the Emergency Room where someone comes in all cut up. Enough said here, I barely could clean up my own kids bodily functions when they were little. No way that I can be around a strangers! Bless you Ultra Sound Technicians and Occupational Therapist. Bless you for being able to do that job!
I then stumbled upon an Internet Marketing Class at University of San Francisco. This sounded interesting. I didn’t know much about the computer then. I did not understand what the whole Internet Marketing business was at the time…but it sounded interesting. I decided to take one class and I was hooked. I could not believe what I was learning. It was very interesting.
One class led to another and before you knew it I had a Master Certificate in Internet Marketing.
A Certificate in Internet Marketing…now what?
I felt like I needed to know more about web design and programming to really be able to do an Internet Marketing job well. I need to know how to blog and write HTML code and CSS.
I decided I would go back and take…more classes! I signed up for a web design and programming program. I loved that program! The classes were self-paced and I completed each course faster than anyone had done before me. Wow! I am on to something! This is going to be great! I received my certificate in web design and programming.
I started building my own websites. Oh, my goodness! Buildiing websites are a lot harder when you don’t have a lesson plan and an instructor to call upon every time you get stuck.
This is really hard…this web design business.
I volunteered to help many companies with their websites/blogs. I added SEO and got many of them within the first page for their keywords.
During this volunteer web design position, I discovered something about myself.
I need people!
I need people to intereact with.
I need people to talk to.
I need people…not a machine.
I don’t like having a relationship with my computer.
I don’t like being alone with my computer.
I don’t want to do web design and programming for a living.
But wait! I have just spent the last two years developing these skills (and confidence) for this new career.
If I quit now, I am a failure. A failure!
I have never looked at any bump in the road or detour as a failure.
I have looked at all these twist and turns and bumps and detours as part of His plan.
His plan! Not my plan! His plan!
His plan of teaching me lessons in order to help others in the future.
Now I can choose to look at my situation as a failure or I can choose to look at it as part of His plan.
Maybe I needed to go through these classes to learn skills for something bigger and better.
Everything is always bigger and better when you Believe. When you have Faith. When you walk His way.
So as I decide today that I am no longer going to pursue a career in web design and programming, I AM going to pursue a life and career that follows His journey for me. His road. His dream for me. I will be the facilitator. I will let his words flow through me. I will listen. I will trust. I will have faith. Without any of that….I am alone.